friends?

friends, people who are there for each other through gkood and bad times.
i have a rare severe chronic disease and i did almost die,  lost alot of friends, but my best friends stayed.
better now :)

so, let me tell you this, you say one more time that you dont want to bother my family or me with your problems then i will scream!
you are there for me,let me be thnere for you! damnit! frien dship is a two way street!
im not just someone who doesnt care about whats going on in your life.

but seriosly?  my moms best friend from her childhood dies and she didnt find out a year later when she tried looking her up on face book? my mom didnt even get to go to her funeral! HER B EST FRIEND!! 
her moms exscuse?
i didnt want to worry you or trouble you with it!
wow,  cant get much lower then that!

i have a chronic disease, but i am not without emotions. i love my friends and family deeply. please let me in your life! i dont mind. i like to feel that i can be there for you too, just like your there for me.

adam lambert slip ;)

the other day i was talking to mom sayin how adam lambert was born in 82, me in 92. my parents are ten years apart so ive always been okay with older men in the 10 year range. so upon findi9ng this ouit i said " mom, did you know adam lambert was born in 82? which only makes him 10 years older!' so i continued to tell my mom that i could marry him in the future, hes not to old for me. and i didnt see a problem with that?  and as my mom pro1cessed what i said she had told me, "yeah, no problem there... except that hes gay" and i almost fell off the couch laughing bc i had completely forgot that!
if only, if only :/